Dare I even mention OUT LOUD, that it might FINALLY be Spring?
I hadn't put any of our winter stuff away yet. My front hall closet still contains winter coats and mitts and hats. Hey, I'm no fool. Every time someone on FB updated their status saying they'd put "winter away," it snowed. I wasn't going to be that person! Our freaky Spring season "seems" to be here to stay, so I feel confident that I can move on to all things SPRING.
Along with the actual scrub down cleansing of all things home, in the Spring I like to do some mental decluttering. I like to take inventory of items in my home that can be purged; clothing, papers and knick knacks no longer in use, be gone! In that same manner, I do an internal inventory of "stuff" that is weighing me down and blocking me from moving forward into a new year with clarity and peace. I'm all Zen and New Age like that.
Sometimes that means changing my OWN head space around an issue that is stressing me, and sometimes it means it's time for a bigger toxic purge of negativity-which can include individuals that have nothing positive to offer me. Sometimes, those two things collide, and it's my own acceptance of a situation or person that has allowed the toxicity to exist.
I'm in a REALLY good place right now in many aspects of my life. I feel like I'm on the right road to a lifelong habit of healthy living. I make time, every day, to be active. I'm conscious of making sound nutritional choices for myself and my family, while balancing that out with my loves of chocolate almonds and booze. A girl has to have SOME vices! My family is totally on board to pursuing activities we can do together that are fit and active. My husband and I are in a very good place in our relationship-working together, talking things out, checking in with each other, spending time together and apart pursuing shared and separate interests.My children are happy, healthy, confident and secure in themselves. They're truly amazing-and all who meet them tell me the same. They make me PROUD daily. I'm surrounded by some of the most positive, inspiring, encouraging friends anyone should be blessed to have! My circle seems to be growing daily, and each new individual is a bright light, which is mind blowing! I feel embraced and centered in SO many areas. The flip side of this "love in" is-it illuminates with unflattering clarity where that peace is lacking.
So, I'm doing some mental sweeping once again. It's time to really do a deep clean and get those cobwebs out of the dark attic corners! My goal in life is to always be bettering myself and improving and changing what needs tweaking. No more opening the door to people who only bring animosity and poison. I will no longer allow it or read it or permit others to tell me about it or gossip to me about the unsavoury. Where I CAN omit contact, I will be.
I'm still working towards VENTURING and LEAPING into one challenging activity a month. April I ran my first 18k race. I've already run further in May, but of course that won't be all that I do! I still have plans for May. One of those is this final erasure of that which darkens my door.
The summer sunshine is shining brightly towards the future.....and I'm following it's brightened path.
Every time I read your posts (which I love by the way) - I'm reminded of how I need to focus on my thinking - my head space - my priorities - instead of my main focus to always be workout & eat well. I guess it's really a happy medium between both places, but I often put my "mind" on the back burner when trying to change the physical side of me. I love the way you tackle things - something new every month, so aware of poeple around you and how they affect you. I think I can learn alot from you. Good luck with the rest of your plans for May. xo
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Christy! Learn from ME!! That's a huge compliment, indeed! I definitely think the mental aspect has a huge impact on the physical-WAY more than people give it credit. It goes along with the idea of "losing weight isn't hard-it's about workout more and eat less." Well, D'UH! Everyone KNOWS that...it's the WHY we don't, why we binge, why we comfort with food that is the REAL journey. Sometimes, I think facing those reasons is much more difficult than just getting out and exercising. For me, anyways. :)
DeleteYou look like "Spring" the last few times I have seen you...you look light, happy, refreshed, at ease, like your blooming :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Katie! I definitely feel a shift taking place. I feel like I'm finally coming "into my own" in some ways. I still have a ways to go, and pieces of the puzzle aren't quite there yet...but I'm getting there, bit by bit! :)
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