The Study of Human Behaviour

Humans are such interesting and tricky creatures aren't they? Happy one moment, sad the next, angry without reason, flushed with joy. It's a continual roller coaster, and every second of it fascinates me. I've always been interested in observing and analyzing, and "how people work" is pretty much one of my fav pastimes.

No matter what the background, everybody comes to adulthood with some sort of emotional baggage. It's not so much the baggage itself that interests me, we all have a story of heartache or loss, it's more the way people try to hide, avoid, excuse or handle their baggage that is intriguing.

Oh, don't think I don't peruse myself under the big microscope of self-analysis as well. I'm a confronter by nature, and I'm also uber self-critical. I've pretty much "got my number" by this point.

It's the dichotomy of allowances people make for themselves but not for others, or the forgiveness they bestow on one situation but not another, the way they'll find to loathe one person, but uphold another or the way they'll excuse those they love for the same transgression as committed by someone they don't.

There are those that act tough to camouflage a fragile and sensitive spirit, those who pretend not to hurt by acting angry, and those that avoid in order not to address or feel at all. There are those that pretend to themselves that things are unfixeable so they never have to take action.

I'm not judging or saying there's one way to "be." I think we all survive and get by as we can on this path. Some are further ahead, maybe, enlightenment and growth wise and some are finding their way little by little. Would I rather people be pro-active in some way, like finding remedies and recognizing an excuse from reality, or by letting go of blame and releasing anger? Sure, I would. But like everyone, I also struggle to always do those very things. I like to think I get there eventually, which I qualify is better than never getting there at all.

Sometimes, I think I should have become a psychologist due to this interest in the behaviors of humankind. However, Armchair Psychology 101 is a lot more fun and doesn't require actually trying to guide someone to the truth. It's a lot less painful this way, and a lot cheaper too.